D. Pelita

I bet you understand what I call T-word wkwkw. Yeah this story would about that fucking thesis. I was planned to write this even when I’m still working on it hahah but glad it’s already finisheedddd. I was working on it from 2019 until 2021. Just cry with meeeee. I hate it so much but I learn a loooooooootttttt of things from here. I understand Thesis not about the result but about the journey to finish it. Maybe that’s why, people said “ Great thesis is not the spectacular one but the one that finished ” cause the journey was full of tears and wounds. I write this down to remember that I was great to through all of this. I’m proud of myself.   It’s so precious memory for me. Because thesis not only read some paper, journal, books, article then make it into words then sentences then build into paragraph then a whole chapter then violaaa a fucking thesis. But more than that. So okay, I’ll start from proposal one. It start on the last 2019, 7 th semester. It’s the time that I was ...

  Halo! It's been a long time. Hari ini aku bakal nulis bahasa Indonesia aja meskipun pasti bakal nyampur juga nantinya but mostly in Indonesian. Ok, actually I want to write this since last year. Yeahhh LAST YEAR!! But I don't know why baru sekarang akhirnyaaaaaaa aku menulisnya. Sebenarnya karena aku yang gak pernah nunjukin afeksi ke orang lain, merasa sangat amat sangat sangat cringe untuk menulis hal seperti ini. Kemudian perdebatan lagi ini gue mau ngetiknya di hp atau di leptop aja. Ya ampun, dan endingnya ngetik di hp supaya bahasanya lebih gawl aja getohh. Emang sih agak aneh tapi tulisanku di hp sama leptop bakal beda. Okelah langsung aja, todayyy aku mau cerita tentang teman ahhha. Ya ampun sumpahh I lost my words. Gatau ini cringe banget dan I don't know why actually I always want to write this cz it's something like I want to show my friend how grateful I am for having them but I can not show them directly karena gue gengsinyaa segede gengsinya Renjunnn so...

  Hello! Injeolmies here! The most happiest day for every injeolmies all around the world, yes Huang Renjun birthday yeyyy yuhuuyyy horrayyy!  So let me explain my experience as Injeolmies and what’s Renjun means for me.  I started love NCT before they debuted back then in 2016. I know them in 2015 but not too pay attention. They are SM Rookies Boys back then but I already loved them, not to lie I loved them because they are EXO’s little brother and decided get to know them more. Back in 2016, I was in the rest after taking graduation test or in Indonesia we called it Ujian Nasional (UN). We need to wait the graduation announcement 3 months after so many of my friends taking less for University Test or in Indonesia called SBMPTN but sadly I didn’t becauseeeee Idk I just studied by myself. In that time I was so bored because not a lot things to do, just amount of example-test on the paper and it’s so tiring. Soo I found that SM Rookies will debuted soon. Then I followed th...

Hello! I know this would sound so cringe or maybe creepy for some people. Talk with doy? Wkwk this is crazy I know. I have many friends to talk to but idk, maybe I just need to write down what I feel right now before I do crazy things again. Ok whatever it is. Just skip skip.  ------------------------------------------------BATAS SUCI-------------------------------------------------- Hai kak Doy. Wait, I really don’t know what to say.  This last 2 weeks I feel so nano-nano? I feel so desperate of everything. I feel so dumb. I feel like I want to die (again). Should I said that I can’t sleep well? I sleep at 6 A.M, sometimes it’s because insomnia but sometimes I just too lazy to sleep. I know this sound crazy but yeah I feel so lazy to sleep. Wait, Idk how to start. Sometimes, I put away my phone, turn off the lamp, lying on the bed, close my eyes, trying to sleep but my head is about to explode. It’s so noisy there, really. And again, it will play some dramatic scenario about ...